Where do I begin?? I read some of my old entries,its pretty amusing. You always think your life is so terrible in high school and now I wish I could go back... to the days of Water Polo... being in the pool all day... smelling like chlorine Those were the good days. But I honestly think that right now is the best time in my life.
I just found an awesome job. I work days now. No more staying up all night and sleeping all day. I have the most amazing boyfriend in all the world and we have an amazingly cute little house, with a little dog, and our perfect little life. I couldn't be happier.... Well maybe a wedding would make me happier haha.
I often wonder how my life has gotten to this point. Before I met Nic I think I was in a world of trouble. My life was spiraling out of control and I felt like I couldnt stop. And then this man walked into my life. I fell in love with him the first night we hung out. Now I know all of you are thinking that, thats impossible. But I did, I sat there and stared at him while he talked and felt my heart piece itself together. It was shattered before not just by one person or even a boy for that matter, but by people that have hurt me in the past. Trust me my heart was in pieces. I never thought I could fall in love, the boys I claimed I loved before were different. I loved them, but I loved them as friends. I loved them like I love some of my friends. I always knew that too. Every guy I was with that I thought I loved, I always felt that tiny little voice that said dont give all of yourself to them. I didnt and Im sorry, but I know if I had done that, I wouldnt be able to love like I do now. Not just Nic, but the people that are in my life right now, I love them more than they know. Its such a pi vital time in my life right now and I honestly believe that these people are here to stay. People from my past that have come up, or new friends that have made a huge impact on my life.
I hate using the word love, because it has become this non-chalant word that people throw around and I think it has lost some of its meaning. Its sad really, but if I say I love you to you, I mean it in the purest or pures. I dont say it to everyone, just to people that I really really mean it.
Im tired and I have just rambled on.. sorry friends. time for bed.
